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The Best of 2013: If Only

Beloved, the “of only” things of life can hang us up. Be sure when you say goodbye to 2013, you do not let the “if only” meet you on the other side. Thanks Donna for sharing a very personal message that has blessed so many people!

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John 11: 17-37

In 2009, our family endured a tremendous journey of sickness and loss that continued through August, 2010. These events left my brother and I with questions of “if only.” My brother and I grew up in a very close and loving relationship, almost too perfect. As I recall we did not argue or fight as many siblings did, but always had each other’s back. This all changed and began a trickledown effect that left us both devastated. This one time disagreement lasted for 3 years. We moved in and out of each other’s lives barely speaking and often times avoiding each other’s presence. Although he and I pretended to live as if there were no problems, our father did just the opposite. Our problems inevitably became his stroke. It is as if the one disagreement between us would be the beginning of 2 years of “if only.” This journey not only affected the two of us, but our entire family.

My father had been in ICU for nearly a week when my grandmother was calling for someone to pick her up. A week later as I drove back from picking up my grandmother, she gave me that firm grandmotherly lecture of nothing is more important than family, “work it out.” There was nothing left to be said. After a week of visiting with my father my grandmother stood beside my father’s hospital bed and said her last good byes. Her last words to my father were “I am going home tomorrow and I won’t see you for a while, but I will see you again.”

My grandmother had a massive stroke and died that night. A year later in 2010 my father also died of stage four lung cancer. These two events left me with the question of “if only.” My “if only” turned to anger and resentment. No matter the anger and the resentment I knew Jesus was my only source for survival through this ordeal. Just as Mary and Martha had questions of “if only” they knew that Jesus was the resurrection. John 11:25-26 states “Jesus said I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in Me, though he may die. He shall live. 26 And whoever lives and believes in Me shall never die. ”

Regardless of life’s circumstances remember even Jesus wept. Don’t allow your “if only” situations to hinder you from believing in the one who has the last word in life and death.
Prayer
Lord, thank you for another opportunity to live life to the fullest. Bless those who are struggling with “if only” circumstances. Give clarity and answers to their questions. Keep them in the palm of your hands. Amen

Donna P. Lamb
The Victory of Nashville
http://thevictorychurch.org/



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  1. Carla says:

    Very nice. Amen.

  2. Julie says:

    This devotional blessed me. Thank you for sharing your story.

  3. Felecia T says:

    Great insight Donna. Thanks God for your gift

  4. Chalice says:

    Wow! Thank you for sharing.

  5. Andrea says:

    Dear Sister in Christ, Donna,

    Thank you so much for being open and speaking the truth about what many of us have experienced. My story is so similar that I know it is a word from the Lord, for me today. As I struggle the if onlys for this situation and others, you have reminded me that He knows and He cares…..and I must lay it all behind me and leave it at His Feet.

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